Can someone tell me it’s ok to be lonely.... Can someone tell me it’s ok to be alone.... Can someone tell me don’t put to much afford in human connection.... Can someone just teach me how to be alone without fear of being lonely
i wish i have someone to share..a friend to talk about anything. who i can trust..the one that by the end of the day would ask how my day was..who i can share a good or bad news with..who can tell me anything just because that person wants to talk to me..who will be there for me whenever i'm down..or feeling lonely..or when i feel that the world is not so friendly... how i wish i have someone who can lend his shoulder to cry on..so i can feel better.. i hate to take this sleeping pills..but i have no choice..i guess i can't take this anymore..i need to go to sleep to ease my mind. but to tell you the truth, i wish i can sleep and never wake up ever again..so i don't have to feel this pain that killing me slowly...
I would like a life where stress didn't wake me up at 4 in the morning, where I don't feel bad for giving myself 3 free hours to go to the movies on a friday, where the norm is for me to sleep more than 5 hours without feeling "blessed", where my head isn't killing me for doing the work that I love.
tim... everything feels easier when you're around. whenever i had a really bad day, i feel safe and secure because i have you beside me. i don't care if the world is not so friendly. i don't care about our differences between us that makes people pout their faces everytime we're together. why??? why is the world so cruel to us?? we never asked to be born in different race, tribe and religion. why can't we be together just because we're different?? just because i'm a moslem and you're not..you're chinese and i'm not. it's not fair!!!!! i never want or asked to be born like this. we can not choose the way we born into this life. we can not choose who we want to fall in love with..😢😢😢 tim..i know it's been months since the last time we spoke. since the last time we forced to be separated..and i'm still adjusting with things. things like having you around whenever i need you, and now i have to face everything by myself. things like whenever i have my happy moments and i shared that with you rite away, but now i can't. i can't even tell you..cause we're not allowed to contact each other..😢😢 i miss you..i really do..and slowly it's driving me crazy. i feel like half of me is gone. i really hate to face the reality. reality sucks!!!!! why just because we're different, so it's a sin for us to love each other????? whyyyyy??? what do we do wrong??? i really have a bad day today..the most terrible day..the worst ever. i really need a shoulder to cry on. i really want to hear your voice..to calm me down. i miss to hear your voice..😢😢😢😢😢😢 tim, if you ever read this confession, i want you to know..i love you..i still do..and i will love you always. if you want to make this happen, i'm in. this is our life..no one should take control but us! i don't care if people don't like us to be together cause we're different. let them judge..say bad and nasty things about us..i don't care! actually i'm getting used to it by now..so i don't give a damn. our happiness is not based on them. i can't lose you just because of this. it's just don't make any sense.. i'm praying tonight..hopefully God will hear my prayers..our prayers..so there will be a miracle for us to be together again..and can spend the rest of our lives together.. i miss you, tim...😢😢😢😢😢😢
I just got diagnosed with a mental illness and I'm still not sure how to feel about it. I am happy about it; not happy about having it, but glad to finally know that most of what is going wrong in my life isn't just how it is, but is treatable. But at the same time, I now feel more fragile than ever and somehow more worthless. Maybe it's because of the social stigma about mental issues (I am the first person in my family and circle of friends to have that and I'm not sure if they'll see me as someone with an illness, or someone who's overreacting for attention).
i just need a friend..a friend to talk to..😢😢😢
'Hell' is an abyss
I just tried to drink out of a glass bottle and lifted it to my mouth too fast, slamming the bottle against my front tooth. Really forcefully. I am now sitting here with a aching tooth, and don't dare to open my mouth because I'm to afraid my tooth will fall out or be loose. To make it worse it's a Friday and I have holiday plans, so if it does get worse I need to cancel that and need to go to an actual hospital. All that from being too hasty with drinking. FML.
I hope the mental pain can just go off... I suddenly feel self inflicting pain is so much better
I want my brother gone and out of my life. He's a piece of shit person. We all want him gone. I hate him so much. I wish I didn't but he's not someone who is deserving of love.