You guys are so amazing. I have put so many confessions on here about different parts of my relationship and you guys comment some great words of wisdom. Thank you. It's working pretty well.
I can't sleep if my closet is open lol too scary
there's some dark shit out there man
I feel guilty all the time and I just want to apologize to everyone I see
I watch femdom porn because I'm scared of men
lately, I feel great.. mybe bcze of my bf tke good care of me? he's everything for me! not just as bf , he can be as friends, as Motivater, as my strength 💕
I love being myself .......
Dear parents, just get a fucking divorce already! You fight all the time and you KNOW it's because you're too goddamn different AND unwilling to understand those differences. At least go to couples counseling you goddamn idiots.
I think my mother believes I am a fall back boyfriend. She has straight up told me many times the reason she had me was because her first husband had died. When she would get dumped every so often she would make me sleep in bed with her and hold her. This went on well into my teen years. If I would talk to girls she would go behind my back to talk bad-mouth me to them in order to fuck it up. I had to hide relationships. She may have been trying to take me off the dating market since I was little. She would frequently tell me how she wanted a girl, and would try to get me in girl roles like a flower "boy" at a wedding. She was insistent that I was gay and didn't know it yet. I later got a long distance relationship when I was trying to be a musician. I got a normal job and moved to a city near my childhood home to marry my wife. My mother flipped. Tried to convince my wife I am a schizophrenic capable of murder, or stupid, and similar lies. When my wife wouldn't leave me and we had a kid, my mother "dumped" me and "adopted" her bf's 18 year old estranged son and moved him into my old room. Then she would mail me pictures of them together. So since her bf dumped her and the kids moved away and got sick of her she's all alone now. No fucking WAY am I going back to her. That woman is dangerous and I need to keep my kids far away.
I know i'm worthless, i can't do anything. I sometimes trying to love myself, but i can't people just keep judging me, makes my confidence down, and i end up with crying by myself. And the hard part is i can't tell anybody about this.