Why do I even come to this site when half of the people here annoy the hell out of me
Im slowly becoming a liberal Muslim. My family doesn’t know.
I'm fake. I don't do nice things for people because I care about them, I do it to make me feel better about myself and to avoid getting some huge punishment after I die. I doubt things just end when you die, that'd be WAY too easy to be true!
I didn't do much today, but it feels like a long and tiring day.
A few weeks ago my brother asked me about this line across my ankle that looks like a rope ligature and I remember it being sore before...but I didn't know about anything happening. I just made something up because I didn't want to look dumb. Now I remember it was this company who had some construction workers I rejected. They gained access to my apt when I was sleeping and drugged me??? I remember I couldn't move or open my eyes but I heard em talking about my body and taking pics. I heard the noises. Idk what they did else...I think licked me.
Sometimes I stroke my own hair to comfort myself
I can't afford to eat sushi anymore so instead I watch other people eat it on youtube
I've never been close to my sister. We're two completely different people and our personalities just don't get along well. She's extroverted, social, loud. I'm introverted, shy, quiet, and never party. She was mean to me when we were kids. I can count on one hand how many times we've called or texted the other just to talk. Not because of an emergency, or one of us needed something, just wanting to talk. I think it's 2 or 3 times. It's hurtful that she has all these friends she talks to and hangs out with all the time, but I'm never included. The only reason she's talked to me lately is because her car was repossessed, her boyfriend is in jail, and she needed rides to work and a babysitter. Once she gets a car and a regular babysitter, she's not gonna talk to me. To be honest, I'm okay with not being best friends with her. I just want to see my nephew and see him grow up. Thinking about my nephew growing up without knowing how much I love him kills me. I wish I had a sister that loved me. Other families that I know, siblings love each other and are friends. I know she loves me because we're family, but she doesn't like me as a person and I know that. I've given up on being close to her. I had hope when she needed me this time, but she still treats me like a stranger.
What if all the circular things were rectangular and rectangular things were circular? Houses would be cylinder-shaped and kitchen counters would form a circle instead of going along the walls. Tires would be cubes - not good idea - and steering wheel would be a square. Our phones and computers would be balls and tiles in walls and floors would be either circles with cement in the excess spaces between them or arranged circle-within-circle like a dartboard.
you old miserable ass LIVES to see my misery. you're gonna die slow watching me glo up tho.