idk how people can have rape fetishes... I've been in more than one situation where things were done to me/I was forced to do things I didn't want to do. and it messed me up for the rest of my life. I have trust issues, anxiety, certain things I can't do sexually with my boyfriend who I love so much, because it reminds me of what was done to me and I break down... rape is not a joke. rape is not a thing to take pleasure in. these girls who "wishes a guy would rape her" make me sick.
People are such pussies. Some racist twat responded to my reply tweet to someone responding to his tweet. I replied back asking him to cite his sources for the statistics he tweeted. My exact reply was "I'm not saying you're wrong, I'm just wondering where you got this information from" and he said it came from the federal data. Of course when I asked what "federal data" he provided no proof or facts that supported what he said and he ended up blocking me. I looked through some of his tweets before I replied to him and most of them are hateful tweets about everyone and everything. Typical no life, default picture having troll. Some of his tweets included graphs and supposed statistics but I looked up a lot of the statistics he was saying and none of it matched what he said. If you're going to hate on someone or something at least get the information correct and if you're trying to convince other people to think like you and agree with you then present the facts that correlate. I'm always open to learning new things and understanding where people are coming from but you don't have to be a bitch about it. All I did was ask where you got your information, there's no need to call me a racial slur and then block me. A simple I don't know would've been fine or actually saying where it came from if it's true
My bf is a med student, plus has two jobs. He often has night shifts because he can't during classes, and he also works a lot saturday night's, like tonight... Tomorrow he will be sleeping in very long, and i will be at his appartment not knowing what to do while he has to rest. I support him and I admire him for his perceverance, this last year was very tough... but still I am sitting here and waiting for him and looking forward to having some hours weekend with him, But I am sick and tired of not being able to be with him and not doing anything bc he can't afford it or is too tired... just wished we had one night together once in awhile and not always this stress because of work or the studies or health...
I get up in the morning. I shower for work, or just to just get ready for the day; whether I go out or not. Sometimes I have a mental dialogue of past issues, wanting a do-over of my life, or hoping for inspiration, that will change my life. I take my 37 minute drive to work. Along the way, between the music, the ride, my scarfing down the banana and drinking coffee; I lose track of space and time. I become hypnotized by the travel and alert, at the same time. At work, I sink into my task, and allow my responsibilities to become a form of meditation. It becomes my escape. I drive home, I eat dinner, and try to entertain myself with television or something to read. I later, go to bed. I lie in darkness, staring in the direction of the ceiling. I am the age where I should have had at least 3 kids or married. None of those things have happened. I think about relationships, that have not worked out, that were so many. I think of the men, that have better lives, well after me. I feel like I am in a continuous loop, and end up, where I am alone, in an apartment, repeating, this story over and over again. So...I close my eyes, mentally tell my body to relax, and go to sleep. And then I wake up again.
It's only August, but I have rough budget plans until the end of the year. I know what each paycheck will be as long as it's the normal 40 hours. So I put all my bills due for that pay period in a spreadsheet with a running balance of how much money I have left. With some bills due at the same time as rent, I pay those early since rent will take most of my money. For bills that fluctuate, like electric bill, I guess high. I even started budgeting money for my boyfriend's gas and phone since he makes less than me and could use some help. It works pretty well for me, but I wish I didn't have to live paycheck to paycheck.
I just wish i didnt fall in love with someone who has absolutly no feelings for me whatsoever.
I'm a barber and when I'm horny I start imagining having sex with my clients in the barber shop. Would love to secretly jerk off my clients cock under the cape or have them finger my pussy while I cut his hair.
Feeling anxious again, thinking of past mistakes and people i've lost...
I honestly love going down on people. Male, female, it doesn't matter. I love both. And no one has ever gone down on me, but I'm okay with that. (Disclaimer: I've only had sex with people I've been relationships with.)
loving you is like sinking you don't know what's happening until your head is about to go under