I seriously wish and hope that someday, Leonardo Di Carpio and Kate Winslet end up together. 😍
As a virgin in her 20's, I get very anxious thinking about relationships and things like that. People generally tend to have a very weird reaction when they find out I haven't had sex, and it makes me nervous to think about having to tell someone who I might be romantically interested in. Like, what will that person think? Will he be turned off by it? Should this be something I tell someone, or no? It's just such an awkward thing for me. I always try to avoid it and try to get on as if I've had some experience when in reality I've had next to none.
I always wonder if the reason I have not had much luck in the dating department is because I'm not exactly the most feminine woman around. I mean, I enjoy being a "girly-girl" from time to time, but very rarely. Mostly, I'm very tomboyish and it makes me think that it might unsettle some people sometimes (not just men, but people in general). Who knows. Maybe I'm just over-thinking it.
Period makes me crave for hugs constantly. But hugging is too awkward for me to do.
I’m going through something... and I feel so alone. My friends... they’re leaving me behind. I can’t catch up to them anymore. If I’m ever mentioned, it’s to pick on my mistakes. I hate how things have become now. I hate how tense everything is. I don’t trust any of my friends now, since they seem to be anything but trustworthy. I can only depend on my family but they wouldn’t understand this... I’m tired. So, so tired.
Boy oh boy last night was a wild one. woooooweeeeeeeee!
I'm a loser. My life is so empty. I don't have a goal in life, no friends, no gf, no job, no money. I'm gonna end alone and poor.
So... I can't remember my age anymore. I have always been a little embarrassingly forgetful about that, but it was more of an "I am eightee- oh wait haha meant to say nineteen, I got so used to saying eighteen last year haha". But lately I went around telling people with full confidence that I'm 20, until my brother corrected me. And now I noticed that every time I'm thinking about my age, I have to calculate it with my birth year. It's crazy. I'm crazy.
My life is so hard that I want to start consuming drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. ... I want to cut myself in pieces and I can't stop fucking crying. I want to run away from everything and everyone and just be alone. i haven't told this to anyone & was keeping it in myself up untill now. Please tell me what to do I want to kill myself & I tried couple of times...
I hate my family,friends and everyone who knows me....except my best friends...I hate them,that I think should I kill them???They are so stupid!!!!stupid,stupid,stupid,stupid,stupid...and forever stupid...I can't trust that they are human who is the closest to me....really..mI hate them...why do I born with my parents blood???I really2 jealous with my other friends...their parents is so nice that I think,should we change parents???It will be like heaven if I could...what the hell???If I can be born again...no,before I died...I need to kill them first!!!I never change my heart...that's all