Whenever I see the videos made by PETA or by vegans which portray the farm animal abuse (cows, pigs, chickens, etc) I literally feel nothing. The only thing that goes through my mind is "well, it sure tastes great once it's on my dinner plate."
I'm gay. I'll leave all the sad depressing bullshit out of this post though.
I am 18 years old, and I only ever had one boyfriend. I didn't take the relationship too seriously, because I'm still young and we only knew each other for a short time, but after a week of "dating" (if you can even call it that, he never even made the effort to take me on a real date) he startet saying things like "I don't want you to move in with your friend after you finish school, I want you to move in with me" and "I am going to give up my job for you, because I don't want to move away for you. If you don't want me to give up my job, you have to come with me." . He wanted me to move across the country and he was dead serious. He never listened to me, and everything was only about him. I was suicidal for a pretty long time, and although I told him, he always kept on talking badly about depression and how it is not a serious matter. He made me pull his weight on a hike, because he had forgotten his insoles, and when I offered the place in the wagon to my friend, wo fell and injured herself really badly, he refused to get out, because he thought his fragile, dainty little feet were far too precious to touch solid ground. I made a lot of effort to make the relationship work, but it only lasted a month, and although he was very sweet before we started dating, he was a horrible person as soon as I said that I'll be his girlfriend. I ended up cheating on him a few days before I had the chance to break up with him, but in my heart, the relationship was already over. Still, I feel awful about it. I know he was horrible to me and that I really tried, and that I was only still together with him because he could not even make time to see me (I wanted to break up in person, because I felt that he deserved to have a chance to talk to me, but he took the chance to insult me, although I never told him I had cheated) and I know I was far out of his league and everyone thought I did him a favour by even dating him, but still ... He stalked me for a while after that, and I think I might have really hurt him. And although he is the most annoying, ugly and impolite little pest I have ever met in my entire life, I feel bad. I'm sorry for the long story, but I just had to get it off my chest.
I'm an extremely experienced runner, and it pisses me off when people spend over $300 on a bunch of running cloths and shoes that their only going to do 30 minutes of cardio in 3 times a week. However it is their purchase and their life, but it is a waste of money.
I hate everything...what i am, the choices i made to get where i am, how my life is turning to be, the future that i KNOW i will hate. I know a shit load of people but i have not many friends, the fact that people around me see world worth living, where i only see a fucked up world, where you can't trust anyone because the soon you give "a hand" people want your arm, money corrupts us anyone, everybody just cares about themselves. The fact that i wanted to end my life so many times...but tought "better times will come", but stil nothing yet came that was worth it...no friends, no girlfriend...a job that i mostly got to make my parents happy...well at least i got that off my chest
I fear no man. But I am fuc*ing terrified of my fiance when she is on her period.
I wish I wouldn't suffer so much for someone who doesn't even want to try to have a relationship with me. All I can do is cry and hope my broken heart will heal soon and stop feeling so restless and scared.
my bestfriend is funny, nice and really cool. we have so much in common, and he always makes me smile. we can do everything together. i love him, and i would do anything for him.. but he only wants to stay friends.. i'm glad he still wants to be friends even after i told him how i feel, but it still makes me kind of sad..
i find more honesty and respect in the crime world than i ever found in society. they sell that image to us that drug dealers and robbers are the ones who are violent, but on the crime there's only broken people tryin to make money and don't let the government suck on their hard work,people who stand up for something. the life is short and dangerous,but i see those guys and girls living on their feet,and it's a feeling most people living afraid and on their knees will never know. the midia pump us with fear but the real world is not like that,people,please,go out,meet people,explore,do things,you don't need to do nothing illegal but just,live life on your feet,don't bow down to corruption and cruelty. the fear you have of life is not real.
I realize that i've spent my whole life in front of a tv a little too much. Fictional characters mean way more to me than real life heroes so to speak.