The First time i ejaculated my penis swelled up like a balloon...Is that normal?
My boyfriend and I were separated the last 2 weeks because of his job. It was the first time in our 3 years together that we didn't see each other for more than a day - I know how crazy that sounds, but we're just really close. We were really sad about it and saying how we couldn't wait to be together again... But the past week I've noticed that I was as calm as I hadn't been in a long time. I slept way better. I did so many things I used to love and partly had to give up for him, and it felt so great. I enjoyed it more than I'd like to admit, but I have to admit it, because I'm so lost - I love him deeply, but seeing how great it was without him got me thinking if I should break up with him. Or if it just felt so great because it was something different than usual, and would quickly bore me again and I'd want him back. I don't know.
I fell in love with the perfect person for me, but one of her best friends is to open around her and I want to hurt him. I doubt she would ever do anything, but I don't trust him at all. Am I right to want to hurt him?
I wish i wasnt so lonely and desperate for romantic love. I think every woman i find attractive (which almost all of who i meet) picks up on it and gets all creeped out and just want me to go away. I can't help it and the only way to deal is leave as quickly as possible which then makes me look like an anti social loser. Now i'm just really depressed and time is running out so quickly...