i really am done chasing you :)
oh wow, i really doesn't feel anything anymore whenever its about you ^^. what an achievement
Am I the only one who can have absolutely amazing sex but if deeper emotional intimacy is missing you feel emotionally empty after? The feeling is even more intense when simple kissing doesn't occur. It always makes me feel used and like trash. Please tell me I'm not some sort of freak?
I have ADHD and struggle with messiness at times. My boyfriend is working long days, and doesn't help clean the house at all. I do it all but slack on folding my clothes, and he makes me feel like dirt about it. Yes, I know this is something I need to work on, but I actually do a really good job at everything else (while also working on a side business and working full time). I am getting better at expressing that I have a boundary, and he needs to watch how he talks to me.. But it still hurts I have to remind this person to be NICE to me.
i act like i feel something, the truth is i dont feel anything.
I just want everything to stop.
Growing up my dad would beat my mom with random things ranging for a metal bat to a wooden pole and make her undress like a dog, he would spit on her, stomp on her and choke her until she was blue and I would have to sit there and watch with my sister, my mom did nothing about it and would continuously spend most her money on him, i love and hate my dad and mom. I also think I was sexually harassed by three people my old friend, my dead grandfather, and my half sister because I can't remember something with them and when I tried I started having a panic attack and crying. my feelings are all mixed up and sometimes I fake being sad and having a panic attack or other serious things that I know I'm doing and shouldn't but still do it and don't know why, I can laugh just fine it's all the other feeling that I fake. I think I'm a bad person.
i constantly have dreams of returning to my old school. i miss it.
its so confusing, sometimes you act like you like me but sometimes you doesn't even care.
being fake all day just fit in is quite tiring ngl :/