On some uplifting news (at least for myself): cancer free!
I am pissed. I have a husband that would rather jerk off to porn, than fuck his wife.
I masterbated again at work today, this time in a supply closet. again, I dont know why these urges have started coming up. there's nothing that really sets me off. it's just a steady build all day, until I can't help but release it....
I compliment on my bf so frequently out of the blue just because i feel like it. But I heard it is a form of manipulation and I'm not intending to manipulate him in one way or another. He's not my possession, he's my partner and I love to make him feel good by making hearing it from me because tbh I never met such nice man like him. And i just think people should hear more good words on others than bad more often. I mean no wonder why everyone gets so depressed because everyone is so bitter to each other. Like i just wanted to make them smile a little. If not feel good inside for a bit. And saying good things frequently well, because it makes me happy and good things makes their vibe positive as well. I dont like to be manipulative. Im scared to hold someone's life and jail them. Ill know how it feels like and thats horrible.
I'm afraid of my future~I don't even know what course will I choose in college right now... Wanted to take fine arts but my mom say it's useless and said it's a waste of time then i told them my second choice and that is anything that is connected to computer... Again they disagree, cause computer work is in companies and mostly they are in capital city of my country which is very far... They wanted me to choose education and to be a teacher~that doesn't suit me at all... What do you think?? should i go with fine arts, "anything connected to computer" or i should just follow what my parents wanted me to choose?
I'm always curious, if ya'll don't mind what's the reason why you and your boyfriend/girlfriend, fiancee/fiance, husband/wife breakup and/or divorce?
I was gonna prep for this conference which was pretty prestigious. And it was my first one too and I'm still an undergrad. But I decided to opt out of it just because of my health. I know it's a waste of my opportunity but idk why, for the first time of my life, I've never been so much happier giving something up for the sake of my own health. Well maybe because this time my actual physical health was affected. But if I have done the same in the past. If I have set aside the research opportunities I applied to that I got into for the sake of my mental health, I think I would've been so much happier then and would be more ready in the future. But giving something so prestige over my health makes me understand that prestige means nothing over something precious which is my life. I felt human for the first time tbh.
I Love women's scent. I love smelling panties as well
I hate people that lack any ability to think beyond their own wants or about anything other than themselves. Self-centered would actually be a improvement
I kind of want to cut my hair like 20 cms shorter but I've never really cut it more than 5 cms at a time and I'm afraid the short hair will look dumb on me. Any above-shoulderlenght haired people here who can talk some courage into me? :D