I have to work from home currently. Started staying home 2 or 3 weeks ago... I think it was 3. I can't be monitored, I was basically given multiple projects and once the quarantine is over, I have to hand in my results. And I haven't done A. Single. Thing. All I've been doing the past weeks is switching between laying on the couch and on the bed, eat junk food, play video games and take walks from my front door to the trash cans and back. I have depression and am generally a lazy piece of ass, so this whole situation is really hard for me. I can't bring myself to do any work if I don't immediately have to. I know that once this thing is over, I will face a load of problems. I hate myself
Quarantine is a time you realize white women have 3 personalities that they cycle trough : drinking wine, painting a wall and yoga.
It makes me verry upset when I say no about something during sex but my boyfriend is still very pushy and tries to do it anyways. Just because I liked it last time dose not mean I want to do it EVERYTIME. He needs to understand that..
while packing his stuff I found the ring i gave him that he swore I took and not a single letter I wrote him while he was away but yeah it was totally me that gave up
This pandemic is really bad, but on the other hand I got my freedom, I am a nurse, and still lives with my mom, (asian culture), but I don’t want to infect them in anyway so I transferred near my hospital. It is my greatest dream to live alone, well my bestfriend lives on the other unit, but still, I got the chance. It is so good to see, mother nature healing, and suddenly mountains from provinces started to appear from our city. Anyway, stay at home, this is serious. Take care guys. 😘
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I work in a dental clinic and we just got news that we'll start working again this Saturday. After two weeks of staying at home, it's terrifying to think that we'll be outside again. We don't know who's infected or not. Before the temporary closure of our clinic due to the increasing cases of covid 19, we already have patients that coughs and sneezes while were working on there teeth. It scares me that we'll be dealing with those again especially that we already have a case of covid 19 in our region.
found some of my teen daughter's clothes under the bed when my ex lived with me. He lost his shit when I accused him of doing something and punched me right in my jaw for even thinking he would be doing anything like that. While packing his stuff I found a pair on my daughter's panties in the backpack he used covered in cum and shit. Then I found at the bottom of the closet he used the pair of shorts I found before covered in cum stains as well as a pair of my daughter's panties from when she was 10 again with cum stains all over them. My girls say he never touched them but this is fucking sick and that he physically assaulted me for confronting him with what turned out to be true disgusts me even more.
I have hated myself for a long time, long story made short: my life has been shit most of the time. A truly piece of shit dad, horrible people, homeless, unloved by anyone, it's only gotten better within these last few years because I work so damn hard, but I finally met a woman who I respect and cherish and desire.. but I'm not the man she deserves. She somehow always finds out about me putting myself down and she catches me doing in person. She hates it, I know why, she thinks "I'm nice" and dont "dont deserve it" but.. after everything I've been through it's what I know. I was bent and broken to see myself as a piece of trash, it makes me sad that I hurt her.. I think she knows that I self harm in a physical way, she's dropped some small hints but.. I just dont want to be here anymore, all I do is wake up, feel pain that was carved into my brain, work a meaningless job, and then go home and do it all again.. and with all this COV19 stuff.. I am not working and I just feel so empty and alone.. she's the first person in so long who makes me feel okay, and I cant see her, or hang out with her and everything feels terrible again.. I stopped gaming, I stopped writing.. I stopped everything but my own pain. Sometimes I believe the "lies" they told me. That I'm unloved, ugly, stupid, waste of time. They stopped feeling like "lies" awhile ago, though.
I can't wait for the quarantine measures to be lifted. I need to go to the church to confess so bad. I've been having these sinful dreams. They won't stop. I need to talk to the priest there.