After trying a few antidepressants, i recently found the right one. I wish i found it sooner now I’ve missed out on so many opportunities in life. Like i could’ve done well on my entrance exams but i didn’t. I could’ve taken care my dying mom at the hospital with care but i couldn’t bcs i felt detached from the world. I could’ve kept my good friends but i couldn’t bcs i saw the world in black and white. None of my relationships were stable. The hate and the love were intense, there was no in between. Now I’m getting back on track and have a loving bf but i cant help but think of what I’ve missed on and lost😢
damn guys it has been a year that I haven't entered inside this app and I went of course to read all the secrets I've written before. I know this app from 2015 then I was 15 now I'm almost 20. dammit nothing has changed. I'm afraid for my future and most especially I'm afraid of myself. I want to be somebody in future,an independent me
My girlfriend really annoys me and gets on me because I'm Bi-Sexual. She constantly asks me "Why do you find guys attractive?" "which do you like more, dicks or vag?" or the most frequent of inquiries "I bet you miss being with guys, dont you." Like I get her position. Shes not wrong in thinking that she has to compete with two genders. But seriously, stop asking me that shit. I look at guys as much as I do everyone else. faces in the crowd I ignore because they aren't my concern. yes, one or two I see in think are cute but i dont fawn over them. They get the same amount of thought as a woman. Sure, one or two is pretty and I let the thought pass by because I love my girlfriend. But come on. Because I'm bi doesnt mean I want to fuck every guy and girl I see.
being the only one stuck at home with my mum is so damaging to my mental health
I still hate few of my high school and college classmates. I want to swear at them.
i hate 6 AM. its the worst time of day. i hate it. the stupid fucking sun is rising but just barely, and the sunrise isn't even pretty at this time. plus im either waking up for school or feeling the after affects of an all-nighter so it's automatically terrible.
First time here, can writing my mind help de stressing me.
I feel so alone and ashamed. This girl I know is upset with me because I wont share my feelings with her, and because I'm always putting myself down. She told me she is angry with me because she wants to hell me, but I refuse to talk with her. But that isn't the case. I've lived a hard life, where no one cared about me or my pain. I just dont know how to talk about my issues. I dont know what to say, all I know is that I'm in even more pain because she cant understand that. I dont know if I can last much longer like this.
So I've been having a crush on a celebrity for ages now. It always ends up hurting me, but I can't stop thinking about them and making up scenarios in my head (about meeting them, falling in love...). I feel so silly and childish about the whole thing, but I've decided to write a fan fiction about it. Hopefully it helps me to cope with all those feelings.
I had a great time with my family members today