I had a random threesome last night with two guys I don't even find attractive.
I cheated on my boyfriend again last night, by getting drunk and having a random threesome, with two guys, I didn't remotely find attractive. I feel numb.
I feel guilty for being the way I am. I'm scared of so many things and that's just so useless. thing to feel. I'm scared of people, too. There are some people who I'd like to get to know but I'm scared that I'll just annoy them or accidentally hurt their feelings or that they'll despise me because I'm so emotionally weak. I want to be liked so badly, but I'm even more scared of being judged. I just feel like my personality has no redeeming qualities!
I'm so pissed. We made the announcement at work that the store was closing in an hour, 45 minutes, 30 minutes, 15 minutes, 10 minutes, and 5 minutes. I made the final we're closed everyone to the front at this time message, and checked out what I thought were the last two groups in the store. Someone else came up there 10 minutes after close, took their sweet ass time even getting something on the belt, went through every item trying to decide what to keep, then wanted to me do the whole transaction over to get the voided stuff off the receipt. No! I can explain every void, show you what was voided and why, there is no fucking reason to redo the whole cart. I did not want my manager to approve the abort transaction. Just get what's on there or leave it. If it's not necessary in the next day or whenever you can get back and you're over budget, just take stuff off until you're in budget. And next time, when I say we're closing I mean now, not browse around for another 10 minutes. Next time I do the "we are now closed" announcement, I'm adding "I need everyone to the front of the store at this time, no exceptions". I hate to sound rude, but everyone else got done and out of the store on time. Get to the store earlier or shop online. If you're waiting in line before closing time and the line is just long, fine, I don't mind. For the past two months we've stopped being 24/7, I've never seen anyone so blatantly ignore that we are past closing time. Even people who barely speak English understand when we're closing and they hurry to checkout. I sincerely hope that person doesn't do that again. I'd be fine if I never see them within an hour of closing again.
I wish I was a child again anxiety didnt exist then
Knowing that I have a crush on him, what makes it even more painful is that he informs me that he has a crush on someone else. Fuck this!
For some reason it sounds soothing to me when I hear English spoken with a foreign accent. But not in an accent that resembles my first language (which is not English by the way)
I doze off for ten minutes and somehow I have a nightmare in that time. How's that even possible.
this has been on my mind for as long as i remember (a bit tmi) but i cant shake over the fact that some people uses ONLY toilet paper to wipe their ass, like how?? i feel like that just takes so much time as opposed to just use a toilet spray hose, it's faster it's convenient and it actually leaves you CLEAN. i went to france once and i was actually traumatised how they just used toilet papers, at least turkey had a bidet, thank god cause i was this close to not going because i thought they havent. my friend had the exact same problem when studying abroad, she couldn't stand just using papers so she carries plastic water bottles with the pull push cap around everywhere she goes. honestly, the toilets are actually huge factors to me when travelling, if they dont have a spray or at least a bidet, im not going
i have a bad sickening feeling in my gut, i hope its not true