period cramps are so fucking painful you have no idea, im crying on the floor clutching my stomach wishing someone would just stab me on the arm just so it could take my mind off my cramps
My life is going well all things considered... But I still have a low self-esteem. I still feel like I don't want anyone to see me because I feel that my personality and my heart are gross and anyone who gets to know me would just judge me. I'm scared of making friends because of this and I constantly doubt that my family doesn't really love me. I don't know how to like myself more. My mom is 54 and she still has a low self-esteem, what if I'll end up like her and dislike myself for my whole life? I do visit the psychiatric clinic regularly, but I haven't made any progress on my sense of self-worth. I can't keep going there forever either - my nurse said so herself. She said it's gonna be about three years tops,and after that I'm supposed to get support for the problems of life from the people in my life. But I always thought that relying on people emotionally was manipulative and would tire out the people you vent to. Anyway I still don't know what to do about my self esteem.
I've had a grudge against my father since many years. It's because of how aggressive he gets when he's angry, how easily he gets angry (and very inconsistently... one day something makes him rage, next day he says that the thing is totally okay) and because he rarely considers other people's opinions or takes advice from them, thinking he knows best. I don't know what to do about my own anger for him or whether it's even reasonable to be so upset. Pushing my anger away didn't work... It started to resurface during last year. But I don't want to talk to him about this because I'm really scared of him. I guess deep down I'm worried that he'll dislike me if I speak against him. I've noticed that he favors my brother and me (I'm a girl btw) over my sisters, and I think it's because my sisters don't hesitate to show it when they disagree with him. My brother and I are more avoidant about our concerns. I think it's really wrong that father is so unfavouring towards my sisters just because they say what they think. But I can't bring myself to do the same as them because I'm terrified of his anger. And I don't know if I should feel any of this anger and fear but I can't make them disappear.
I'm a compulsive cheater. I hate myself, and I will end my life soon, so this stuff ends.
Is it just in my country, or do most game shows that are advertised as family friendly contain blantant, not-subtle-at-all innuendos and even offhanded mentions of sex?
thoughts on the abortion law?
I isolate myself so much focusing on my career that I feel like I’m losing myself trying to be someone I’m not in order to attract the attention of anyone because I just really want friends. I really only have 1 friend and she just seems to have her shit so much more in order than I do that it’s kinda hard to keep up. I might be depressed. I can’t even afford therapy. I flirt and use sex as a way to try take my mind away from how lonely I am. I don’t know what to do. I’m really losing myself and I feel it. I had such a fire in my heart that’s now dimming so slowly..
Just met with my ex after such a long time.... we both are doing well with our lives. He just broke up with his girlfriend of 1 year, and I've been with no one after I broke up with him, 8 years ago. I don't think we still have the same feelings about each other anymore as we did years ago. But is it wrong if I hoped a little? That he still hold feelings towards me?
Since we are all on the sex and abortion topic today, I had an odd conversation with a Black guy about this that I could never discuss in public. (I'm a White male) we were talking about raising our kids and he mentioned how, "Once they turn 13 they start fucking and sucking around." My mind was blown. How is that possible? I had known the stats vaguely, but suddenly the abortion politics made more sense. How the hell could that work logistically? We are talking middle schoolers! I lost my virginity at 24, and my wife (Asian female) lost hers to me at 20. We already had degrees and were adults. No wonder abortion is such a huge deal in the Black community. Kids make bad choices. It also hit me why Malcom X might be right. The two cultures weren't compatible. White Alabama laws work for most of White Alabama. Black Alabama (majority) wants abortion, gun bans, and legal weed. We either got to split AL into two states and let them rule their own lives or buy land in Cali to use for reparations to help them move, because this status quo is causing enmity among people who should not be enemies.
I hate spring... why is it so hot