Dumb Confession: I smoke bud all day like every day and my whole family disowned me for it, because they are all super religious, plus my dad is a pastor. People don't believe that I can function pretty good all day long because of indica strains, they just think everyone gets all slumped when they smoke, but it helps with my anxiety, depression and PTSD.
I hate life, it's so exhausting but I try to make the best out of everyday.
Confession #17 When I was little, I hated the world so much that I used to pretend movies like Charlie and the Choclate factory and Grease were real, and I would pretend that was the world I lived in..
I'm 27 years old. One of my favorite things to do during the summer is roll down all the windows in my GTO, blare The Beach Boys, and watch people, (especially older people), just for a split second, question what year it is.
My family is extremely conservative, especially anything that involves sex and relationships... And I was somehow masturbating in secret and I often put condoms in my dildos ( I don't trust the chemical components in it). One night I decided to masturbate in the bathroom and somehow I forgot to throw the condom wrapper properly in the trash. My brother saw it. He asked me if I ever did another crazy science experiments at home (I'm known for that in my family).... I was able to lie and say yes... Now I explained to him these various bullshit microbiology and able to persuade him. I told him to wash his hands because there's e.coli that I synthesized three weeks ago in the basement that will make him sick ( I didn't but I did engineered an e.coli in an actual lab that I work into- not at home... ). It's just cuz the wrapper has the condom in it and has my cum in it. And I'm not shaming him but he's still a virgin because of religious culture we have. He has no idea about condoms and even in high school, we aren't taught these things. I learned sex ed in college. I was the only one who don't practice our religion fully so (I break some laws in secret)....
I wish the news in my country just shut up about Brexit.
so recently i got out of a foster home which ive been in for a few months, and me and another foster kid had been having sex through the few months i was in, despite having a girlfriend (im bisexual too...) i have no regrets on having the sex, i havent told anyone, and i dont plan to either except for here.... im also younger than 15.... so that adds to the reason it being a secret.
Everyone thinks the reason I'm scared for my boyfriend joining the Marines is because I don't want him to get shot and like die, but honestly I know he knows how to handle. himself, the real reason because he wants to get married before he joins, but I'm absolutely terrified and I told him this and he didn't say anything...
I have like no friends that I like. I know it's my fault and I should just try to get along with the people that call me a friend but I used to be so nice that I always got walked all over, all the time. So now I am like kinda mean I gues, but I complain about it all the time. But like there's two people that keep trying to chill, but one is alot younger then me and way too immature for me to handle for more then like 30 minutes. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that maybe I'm more immature by not just trying to be friends with them because of kinda minor things, but they irritate me, shouldn't I just try and find some other people that don't annoy me? Haha jokes on me, a lot of fucking things annoy me.
I dont really like idea of politics in the US. People are way too polar from both parties and are easily offended with little things. I have a reason but all I can say is that many sounded shallow. All I am is silent, respects, and move on. To them, anything that sounded against their beliefs is an attack. Everyone make a joke about each other but act so serious and can't take a joke. They cry then they attack. Being polar on either parties is like a modern cult, you get hurt for saying something. Thats when freedom of speech is used by irrationality. Being polar from either parties is like the anger version of our sexual kink. It's subjective. I might be alone to what I think but it's ridiculous. But it's a society, humans are interesting but our politics is crazy. We are humans who claims we have a rational mind but not when we believe in a certain thing we call "our logic"