So, broke up with my girlfriend not too long ago, because she realised she didnt care for me in the same way I cared for her, and she had feelings for my best friend, I know my best friend also has feelings for her. Long story short they are secretly dating thinking I dont know, she sends him nudes and pics of herself in various stages of undress, and due to a moment of weakness on my part I went round to the friends house last night, and heard/saw them fucking.
I don't have a group of friends or close friends. I'm mostly alone and I don't connect to people easily. My boyfriend on the otherhand has many friends. Pretty social guy and I'm honestly insecure and jealous of his social life.
I cheated on my boyfriend for a black guy. I don't regret it and will continue to do so.
Why dudes send dick pics? dicks ain’t attractive, at least to me
Can I Ook you in da Dooker?
I clearly remember a year ago when I was nothing. People didn't even recognize me. Now, look! Even the farthest relatives would come as they behave they are the closest.
i know by saying this it makes me a shitty person but i truly TRULY hate my 4yr old nephew with a passion. He's a different kind of annoying and i pray to god he doesnt grow up just like the person he is currently. He's only 4 but his personality is clear, he likes things to go his way, he wont respond or reply back unless if he feels like it, doesnt listen for shit, acts out the biggest tantrums ever and is constantly harassing his little brother. The thing is, it's not even about his parent's parenting at this point, my other nephew turned out the complete opposite, he's the sweetest and nicest kid around it's just his older brother that has issues. He's been like this ever since he was a baby. Even his shrilling voice and stuck up face annoys me now. Im a shitty person that has nothing better to do than to hate a 4yr old but thats why im here and not bitchin about it to other ppl. I mean who knows, things might change when he's older but i cant help but think he might grow up to be a drug addict and homeless by the time hes 17 lol I'll stfu now
Fuck. I just got my first credit card, and the second payment is already a day late. I've just had to pay a late fee and now my interest rates have skyrocketed. I misread the date and thought it was due today, but it was due yesterday. I didn't think bills could be due on Sundays because banks don't operate on Sundays. And I'm so forgetful I forgot that the due date was even coming up. I hate myself so much right now for fucking this up. I had ZERO interest on this card until now. Fuck. Why can't I do anything right? This is why I'm a good for nothing loser who still lives with my mom at 23. Fuck me.
After I met my boyfriend, everything went somewhere good in my life. Before I met him, I did had a traumatic incident in the past from people who told me shit about me. It was so bad that sometimes I do get flashbacks from the things they told me.. I get anxiety everytime I pass by these people. What's worse is that the incident where they said shit to me is when We're in a different country, completely where mental health was shunned upon. The country was my home country (excluding my birth place and current hometown). I was sent back home to get treated. I was treated, got better and all of a suddent changed my life from there. Changed every aspect of me. Then I met my boyfriend. I was nervous at first but meeting him gave me new doors to changed many things about myself. I started making new friends, socializing more, reconnecting to my old friends, reconnecting to my best friends. I even had a better connection to my parents and brother. And even my cat. Then I started going back my old habits, working out more often, eating right, doing my hobbies like yoga again etc. Tbh, even though my bf and I aren't that long with our relationship yet, I do believe he's the best thing that happened to my life- a gift from whatever supreme being there is that exist. He's a good man, artistic, and kind. I found myself when I met him. He knows nothing about these thoughts but one thing I reflected on his personality is to be myself and love whatever it is who I am. Be responsible too. He's a great guy and I wake up thinking how lucky girl I am to meet such great guy like him. And my motto "never take someone for granted." Only now I get even use that motto when I met him. I'm not obsessed with him but I'm deeply blessed for meeting him my life. And tbh, there's more to know about him and him to know about me. And when we are together for long, whatever happens from there. Either he's my forever or he's not, I will still always remember that he's one of the best things that happened to my life. I had a boyfriend once before my bf now, and I learned sex and love with him. But my current bf, I learned life. Just honestly how he talks. And tbh, I was never alone nor friendless nor should be even feel jealous about his lifestyle whatever, I just need to actually stop isolating myself from people. I kinda need to stop hanging out with negativity and depression and anxiety. I need to set them out of their cage and let it fly. Let them fly and transfer to something else. Depression and anxiety is a part of me and they do come back but tbh, I just kinda slowly understood how to deal with them from time to time. The older I get, the more people I met whatever. But now I just know who I am.
I have been in love with him for quite a while, but i knew it wouldn't work... We were toxic for one another. So i left. After 4 years, i find myself having a job in his hometown. Even he doesn't live here, he lives in another city, i still hope seeing him when i walk down the street, i imagine what i would say to him.. And i get scared because my feelings are still strong. But i know he hates me. For leaving. I can feel it. And also sometimes i feel connected with him.... Maybe it's just my imagination...