I am about to graduate college with an engineering degree. My dad was killed last year. Now, I do everything around here, at college I have studies and a design project, CV building, giving/attending workshops, interviews, classes. At home I deal with a narcissistic and deflective mother who can't do anything on her own, whether it is chores, cleaning up, food, driving to places, groceries I do it all. My dad was building a house for us before he died, and now I have to see it finished, so I also deal with the contractor and get work done on the house. I don't ask for anything EVER because the world always disappoints and under-delivers, but somehow the world keeps asking everything from me. The phone keeps ringing every 5 mins with someone on the the other line wanting my help, or opinion. Can't sleep because people around me are a constant nag, demands demands demands is all I hear everyday whilst I make none of my own, with 4 hours of sleep per day, my health is deteriorating, and I can barely move. Whenever I tell people to let me breathe, they say "oh I feel you bro" and go right back to asking for help. My mother on the other hand thinks its fair since "it is a man's job to do all this". I can't just leave her like a dirt bag, she raised me. Feels like everyone expects me to do the work of 10 men. I have no idea what I am going to do after college, and when people ask me what I want to do after graduation, I want to punch them in their face. Haven't even mourned my father since his death because all of my shit*y relatives disowned me as soon as he died. Whenever his memories come back, I have to push them away to stop myself from tearing up. So I am practically alone without anyone to talk to. I feel dead inside. What is this? what is happening, it can't be this unfair, right?
People say I don't talk much. Actually, every single second I'm not talking to people. I'm speaking to myself about everything.
I hate shopping. I'm a girl.
Once, I drank a bottle of Jack Daniels and laid on the floor for the whole day thinking my cat was a dragon.
I want to go home.
I actually make up false confessions just for the lulz
Want to leave everything behind and go travelling.
Sometimes I imagine myself as a professional killer.
Me and my GF were at a Baseball Game when a plane with a Banner That Said "Marry Me Katherine!" Flew by. Also my gfs Name... Panicked and tried to distract her... Didnt work. Married for 6 Months now and happy als can be
My boyfriend looked down on me while I was giving him my first bj and said "That'll do pig, that'll do". I got turned on and oinked.