I lost a lot of weight recently. I start to put on make up. And I see people who never bother to look at me start to stare when I walk past them. people who never care about me start to talk about how beautiful I am. Well yes one of the reason I change is so that I can got a boyfriend cause honestly I want to get married soon. But I'm scared if the guys who approach me will only care for looks and be dissappointed when I can't keep my appearance in the future. I hope I can meet a good man who love me for what I really am inside. I honestly never been in a relationship this past 20 years and it kinda made me anxious.