i'm so confused and lost. it has been close to 2 years and i am crushing on a friend who i KNOW is just not good for me and yet I cant stop thinking about him. my mind sometimes fantasizes being with him and it can just suddenly switch into the reasons on why he's no good. i want to block him on my phone, social medias because it became a habit to stalk him and check when he's online but at the same time, i can't do it. i have no intention of telling him my feelings. i was hoping the feelings will fade away eventually but it's taking too goddamn long. i'm just so tired of feeling like this. i just want the feelings to stop.