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My mom doesn't believe me when I tell her that I have insomnia but she does believes I have anxiety. Last night, I finally managed to fall asleep around 4:50am after laying in bed for hours. But I wake up at 6 am so I really only got one hour of sleep. It has been like this for me for the whole week. I've only been getting three to one hour of sleep each night. This morning as I was getting ready for school, I suddenly had this thought that if I didn't sleep soon, my heart would explode. I don't know why, I know that's not true, but I couldn't get the idea out of my mind. And I honestly felt like death. My brain felt too crowded inside my head and I had to eat my breakfast in the dark because the kitchen lights hurt my eyes so much that I felt like I was going to go blind. I was so fucking tired. I was so miserable. So I faked an anxiety attack so that my mom would let me skip school. I went up to her, hyperventilating and trying to make myself look on the verge of tears, and I told her ''I think I'm having an anxiety attack'' and when she took my hands in hers, I made my hands tremble so she would feel me shaking. It worked. I stayed home and slept for a full five hours. Yes I feel bad lying to my mom like that but this is the most alive I have felt all week. Fuck you insomnia. Fuck. You.

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  • grow a pair and finish your school, do you want to work for macdonalds or cleaning toilets the rest of your life?

  • When speaking about insomnia, most people think of chronic insomnia - which is the serious disorder. This is what we speak of when your sleepless bouts last for longer than a month. Acute insomnia is what you might have, it can lasts for a couple of days or a few weeks, but is gone afterwards. I'd say that it's uncommon to refer to a few sleepless nights as insomnia, though technically it can be regarded as such. Most people would just say that they'd had a couple of sleepless nights. However, that doesn't mean that that little sleep can't seriously affect you, and your mom should've let you get your rest regardless of whether or not this should be called insomnia. Good on you for getting some sleep!

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