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I just don't get why things have to be this way, why is it that you gain some and then lose some ? Why?? I've been in an unfavorable living situation for a while now. I have a family - my fiancé and daughter , who I want to enjoy , but because of financial matters, we've had to live with other people. My mom lives with us, and my sister was living with us at one point. My sister moves out, cuts contact with my mom (which fell on me Ofcourse ) and it was just my mom living with us. We fell on financial hard times , and that took a toll on me. A month later , my fiancé tells me his brother is going to move in with us, which didn't make me happy cuz I don't like his brother. He told me that he had a gf who had a one year old and they were going to do anything possible to remain together. My fiancé insisted that it's best for him to come alone and settle in first , but at the end of the day, the little shit got his way anyhow. I tried to be cool about it, Lord knows I tried so hard. I liked the girl, I liked her energy and thought she was a humble cool chick. It's been almost 2 months and I'm not happy,, I'm really not. First of all, I don't fucking understand why the FUCK this nigga brought this girl here when he treats her like complete garbage. The guy is mentally unstable and spends all day calling her names and accusing her of talking to people and treating her like a prisoner . He has this huge complex with my fiancé and accuses her of secretly wanting him. I mean that's just amongst the many things he does. He barely provides for her , I mean BARELY. So who does it fall on? My fucking fiancé ! My fiancé just started to financially get on his feet. He got promoted supervisor and got a second job. Financially we're better than where we were and I'm so thankful , I truly am, but now my fiancé keeps having to help these people out and it pisses me off. Yes his brother got a job, but he just started so he doesn't get paid much. At first I didn't mind but recently I started to notice that they're EXTREMELY entitled , which is fucking absurd. They don't have respect for our shit... They won't use a little of it, they'll use A LOT. They wash clothes multiple times a day, even after making a comment, they still do it. What set me off to feel this anger (cuz I tolerated them before) was when she was throwing jabs at my mom and fiancé for not taking more time out of their schedule to take her daughter to the doctor. My mom and fiancé have done a lot for this chick we never met before until she came into our house. We don't owe her a fucking thing. She made the decision to leave her home in Puerto Rico and follow a fuckboy who treats her like dirt, here to the US. It's been a rough journey for her, and God knows I tried to be as kind and welcoming as I could be but I'm just fucking tired. I'm tired of this shit. I don't want to have to share my shit all the time and have to worry about someone or their well being . We were forced into this situation ... We didn't become associated by free will. I'm sick of sharing my food, yelling at my poor 2 yr old cuz she doesn't know any better than to bully around a 1 yr old she sees using her stuff. I don't want to live with another family , at all. When I truly think about it, I wanna crawl into a hole and just die. Or I want to take my daughter , hop on a grey hound bus to somewhere the hell away from here. I love my fiancé but I'm so mad he put me in this fucking situation, I'm angry he didn't do more so we could've been living all alone and get to enjoy ourselves . I'm getting older , when the hell will I be able to wake up and truly feel at peace with my surroundings? When will I finally wake up with so much joy and so much to look forward to? I'm really bummed out. I can only hope and pray that this is just another bump in the road to success. Thanks for hearing me out y'all. I needed to get all this off my chest. One love.

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