today I told my boyfriend how I feel and I told him I just want to dissapear. he said it's nonsense. my feelings are nonsense. then I said I wanted to die and he said "then do it. we'll see if that's making it better." It hurts so much that he said that. I just wanted someone to talk to about my feelings... i never told anyone before... i trusted him and then he's saying this kind of stuff. he wanted to know why I am always sad and finally I told him and then he doesn't want to know it anymore. I just wanted someone to hold me, but that never happened. we made up later today and are like "i love you." right now, but i don't know if that's the right thing to do. we did talk about this stuff tho and he said he will help me get through, but i don't know. he still said some stuff that really hurts me.