Everyday I text my older sister. She's been so depressed that her boyfriend cheats on her but she loves him. The worst part about it is half the time I don't even want to text her because all of her jokes and wonderful personality isn't even a shell of who she was. She's so depressed she talks about suicide everyday. To be honest I have a suicide note near my bed, since she was 19 and I was 16 we swore that if one of us commits suicide the other one will follow. Truthfully I just want to kill myself without having to worry about her being dead.