She ignores me because she knows that she would say something that would hurt my feelings but I already told her that ignoring me hurts worse. She says that she doesn't want to sound bitchy but she sounds like that already. I feel guilty for hating her but damn I hate this crap. I know I'm awkward but it feels like my feelings are suddenly backseat to hers. I also know that I said that I didn't kind if she vented to me but it's starting to feel more like attacks on me rather than venting. I'm not the best friend, and I'm not her go to guy to hang out with. But when did suddenly start feeling like I don't matter at all.