im... thinking to study in canada and live after that in london. I have no idea how im gonna do it. i wanna study criminology, but i have a lot of mental problems. And a part of me is telling me not to do it, but another part of me yells at me that i should just do it... NO ONE knows about this plan of life of mine, becouse im affraid that they get involved... i plan also to change my name and leave all i love behind... but i dont want to see anyone cry for this, so im just gonna leave. It is so painful in the inside.