Live in Ireland, male, was obese at 16, bullied, slit my wrists(downwards, not across), somehow survived. Now i am 19, after 3 years of hard work, I'm fitness obsessed, only 3% body fat and compete in Mixed Martial Arts professionally. I'm a completely different person. But its all just a mask, i still feel the same inside. Its weird because my life is now going so well, but on the inside I don't feel any happiness at all, just a constantly burning self-hatred.