When i was like 8 years old my confidence in people shattered because the closest ones (my family) lied to me , hurt my feelings and I stopped believing anyone really. I don't have anyone to talk with because I can't trust anyone I feel most of day sad and my friends try to cheer me up ,i thanks them for that but making me to be happy seemed impossible until some months ago . I found this girl she is truly amazing she made me smile the first time I talked with her , since that moment I was amazed by her , I am not saying that she is perfect obvious no one is but she makes believe that is possible , I think I getting in love for her but the problem is that I can't trust her when i want to that to happens and she is starting to realize that . I think that I am bad influence for her because I drink , take drugs, bad grades, smoke and i don't have plans for the future I am failure and I recognize that but she makes me believe that I am not , she makes me want to have a better future , she is simply my force to go on . I need to tell her my true feelings for her , but i think even i can't trust myself do the things right.