My boyfriend and I have been together for over 2.5 years - seems little now but feels like forever - in a good way and a bad way. We've had our fights, we've had our good times but I can not just forget everything he has done before. I've lied to him before, and he punished for it and I understand that, but when he lies and does things that he knows gets me insecure and makes me want to end the relationship - then it's okay. He don't think I can punish him for things like that. It hurts so bad, cannot talk to him about it and I've gained so much weight because of it. Also when he hints that I should go for a walk, go for a a run or go to the gym it its okay for him but whenever I joke about it it's suddenly hurtful. He often say that I'm so angry all the time, he just doesn't seem to care that he is the reason why.. He says I just have to deal with it. I have no one to talk to about this and I cannot count the amount of times I've said to myself that it was the last time - that this time I will break up with him.. Just wanted to clear my head for once.