I don't know why but I am constantly afraid that I might go crazy! Just like that. I have been through a lot in my life, my mother died when I was 7, my father is an alcoholic... But I've always been so strong. And last year I had anxiety and I went to a psychologist and now I am fine. But I am so afraid that I will go crazy and you know I won't be consciously here. I'd rather die than have my loved ones see me like that.