i was 20 years old last year and never had a boyfriend or a kiss for the first time. I got into college and i met a girl whom became my best friend. we got closer. one night at a college party we got drunk. she kissed me and we spent the night together. it was my first kiss and my first personal experience with someone. since then i couldn't stop loved her. she doesn't love me, but we still best friends. it hurts everyday that i can't be with her.