I am in love with my friend for year, but he does not feel the same. We had an affair year ago and it totally ruins our friendship. Now whenever we go out with our friends it is awkward and we simply do not have anything to talk about. He is now happy to be alone so I rather do not bother him by my secret depression of loving him. I love him so much, he was everything I ever wanted, but I know that he doesn’t love me and he never will. I want to get rid of the feelings because it gets only worse. I think I am totally childish and I hate myself for having such a problem.