I'm going to a party tonight, hosted by a friend of my boyfriend, and I know all people who will be there - I only know them briefly, but well enough to know that they're not people I'd like to hang out with (and I think they don't like me either). Almost all of them are guys who like to drink a lot, and the few girls who will be there are all best friends who seem to always be talking badly about others. Long story short, I am terribly afraid of that evening. So afraid that I'm literally shaking. I don't know what the worst thing that can happen is: whether it's sitting in a corner by myself all evening, trying to sit it out; or trying to mingle and, being socially awkward, having a lot of embarassing conversations; or maybe being openly shown that nobody wants me there. The only reason why I'm going is because my boyfriend is always so sad when I don't come with him to such parties, and I want to give it a try at least. One reason why I'm so afraid is that I've been to a few parties before, and I remember how I always thought: "I'm glad I'm having my best friend with me/having an excuse to go early", because it always was so horrible for me.