I have a history of depression. And I think being indecisive is a part of it. And that leaves me empty minded and mentally exhausted. And I just wanted one thing in life. One thing that I will do and will let the course of my life be smooth sailing. I know life is not perfect but I at least I want something that I don't have to add other shit into. When I go into a phase, that's it and nothing more. I just want to decide one thing but I don't know why its sooooooooooooooo difficult. Then I go back to the cycle of feeling lost. And it's so hard to break it.