I don't feel human. Showing any type of emotion is very uncomfortable for me. Sometimes I feel guilty for it, because to me it seems to be off putting toward people in my life. It feels like I don't know how to socialize with others. Even as a little kid I was completely convinced everybody I've ever met were all secretly working together and out to get me. I'm often told the things I say don't make sense. I also unconsciously change my personality not just for the group of people I'm around (ex family vs friends) but for specific people. No two people see me as the same person.