I feel like a liar as I search for diagnosis for my chronic illness. I am often in pain, have joint popping and numbness. Being very physically weak is difficult for me as I am a high school student and want to be able to help everyone but Im so tired and unstable. I near passed out all afternoon today and my friend who I normally walk with didnt care I was feeling ill and got mad for me asking to walk with her. She had a date. I was worried about passing out and getting hit by a car. I feel bad for being a burden. All i want to do is make them happy, but I need to be healthy.