I knew my crush supposedly had a secret girlfriend- but since I heard this from someone else, not him, I've been skeptical about the validity of the statement. But I had an idea of who it was and why it would be best to keep it on the down low. And today, I saw them together outside of work, and she was riding in his car. She lives pretty far away from our side of town, so she had no reason to be riding with him... unless she was going home with him. I mean it's possible that she had car trouble and he was giving her a ride despite the distance because he's just a very kind person, and he's given rides to several people who lived way out of his way. But they've been friends for a while now, and they have really good chemistry despite her being a wild rebel and him being a reserved goody two shoes. Don't get me wrong, I think she's great and I even consider her my friend. One of the few people at work that I'd hang out with outside of work. But seeing them together made me feel sick to my stomach. Knowing that the whole time I thought he might be flirting with me, he was probably actually waiting for her to get promoted so that she didn't work in his area anymore. Knowing that the whole time I was trying to get him to realize how important he is to me, he was probably trying to get her to realize how important she is to him. I'm happy for them, I really am. I just... feel so shattered. So stupid. I can't believe I thought someone like him would actually like someone like me, especially when my competition is a smart, funny girl who is also literally a model. Even I think she's hot. I just wanted to vent my feelings here because even though I wish them the best, I can't help but hurt inside, and I don't know who to talk to about this.