My depression is so bad that I cry after I see someone I know because of the realization of how alone I am. I barely have the strength to get out of bed in the morning now. I don't have anyone to support me and help me through this. I literally just get ignored by people who I thought were close to me. Turns out they were only important to me, and I am not important to them. Being alone some long has ruined my ability to just be around people for longer than maybe an hour. That is before I realize that I am not being talked to or acknowledged when I try to hangout to old friends. I feel like I don't exist until someone needs help doing something that they don't want to pay for. My reality is my own worst nightmare.