I love my baby I really do, but he is just a handfull sometimes and then tonight I have leterally tried to get him to go back to sleep since 11 and its now 230 am and im too the point of crying. Hes crying cause hes tried. Im crying cause I'm tried and knowing hes tried but hes fighting so hes mad and being pregnant agian all this stress right now is making my stomach ache so bad. I do have the babys father in my life and living with me but hes also an ass when you wake him up from sleeping and his pissy attitude is the last thing I need right now. Not saying i'm innocence in anyway cause I obviously get fustrated too. Its hard to be a mom and now I am going to have two which is twice the trouble...Im so jealous of mothers who just have all the patience in the world...I just feel like Im not doing a good enough job now so I dont expect me to be better with another. Im just worried I'll make it worse and that they will be better off without me.