I think a lot of my problems with social interaction come down to my low self-esteem. The fear of speaking, difficulty to trust people, letting people push me around. I wonder how long it will take me to like myself. I've been going to therapy for, what, four years? But I haven't made much progress on self-esteem and I know I can't rely on my therapist forever. And I hear that the actual self-worth should come from me alone and can't be given by others so how much can I lean on my therapist anyway? But even when I try, I just feel so inferior. There are some awesome people that I admire and I keep feeling that I'm less than them because I'm nothing like them. I know that it's stupid to compare yourself to others, but this bothers me so much because I really wish to be friends with some of those people or people like them. I'm scared that they won't like me because I'm not like them and I don't have any cool skills like they do. I just want to have friends, but I know I shouldn't let that affect my self-image either. But I feel really lonely anyway.