My ex boyfriend was beating me so much, sometimes I was having headaches because of that for weeks. He kicked me out of his flat, he slapped me, kicked me while I was on the floor. and was looking at me smiling when I was crying and begging him to stop, he used to tell me 'stop acting'. Never told anyone about it, I just said that he slapped me once. I still have nightmares because of that, and i'm so scared to trust men once again.