6 months ago my (now ex obviously) broke up with me. we weren't perfect, but who can really say they are right? her mother never liked me, i always felt that, she made numerous attempts to brek us up, and in the end she seemed to have gotten her wish, i feel that her mother exploited her at the moment she was easily manipulated. we were together for nearly 3 years, and when she left i completly broke down, spiraling back into depression for the second time in my life. i get regular check ups at the doctor every 5-6 months due to medical issues, i went shortly after we broke up and just this week. my doctor looked frightend when i walked in. she told me i looked terrible, she felt the need to do some extra tests. the past month or two i felt i was doing better. that was a lie i told everyone at least, one i told so i well i started believing it. deep down i knew i wasn't alright, and my doc just went on to prove it. my immume system hasn't been working propperly, i have high blood pressure, my eyes are damaged and my kidney's are failing. if my health doesn't get better in the next 2 months i'll need to taken to the hospital and stay there for a longer period of time. i don't know what to do anymore, i want to be left alone and just fade away and at the same time i want everyone i know and love to surround me and tell me it will be alright.