Don't mean for it to be so long, apparently I have way more to say than I thought. Sometimes I dislike my best friend and find myself lying and telling her I'm busy to get out of seeing her. She only texts me when she's bored (read: when her crush isn't replying) to complain about said crush. I don't really mind that, but when I ask her what's wrong, she tells me she doesn't want to talk about it and it drives me insane because I don't know what to do to make her feel better. Then later she says I'm not the easiest person to talk to, which may be true but I think I could be a good listener. I sometimes find her super annoying, probably because she is super sensitive. And because she's super sensitive I'm afraid to tell her certain problems. She lived in a different country for a while and when she visited she made out with my ex after I repeatedly told her not to see him. He even dropped her off at my place once and she lied saying she took a taxi, even though it was pretty obvious. Oh, she told me they made out after she was safely back in her country. This all makes her seem like a bad person, but she's not, I'm just ranting about the negative that gets me frustrated sometimes. I'm sure I'm to blame too, I'm not an overly emotional person so when she confessed she made out with my ex I just said "OK" and practically left it at that. It obviously bothered me but it was more like a "What am I supposed to do about it now, it's been done." I just needed to share this feeling that's inside of me.