After I met my boyfriend, everything went somewhere good in my life. Before I met him, I did had a traumatic incident in the past from people who told me shit about me. It was so bad that sometimes I do get flashbacks from the things they told me.. I get anxiety everytime I pass by these people. What's worse is that the incident where they said shit to me is when We're in a different country, completely where mental health was shunned upon. The country was my home country (excluding my birth place and current hometown). I was sent back home to get treated. I was treated, got better and all of a suddent changed my life from there. Changed every aspect of me. Then I met my boyfriend. I was nervous at first but meeting him gave me new doors to changed many things about myself. I started making new friends, socializing more, reconnecting to my old friends, reconnecting to my best friends. I even had a better connection to my parents and brother. And even my cat. Then I started going back my old habits, working out more often, eating right, doing my hobbies like yoga again etc. Tbh, even though my bf and I aren't that long with our relationship yet, I do believe he's the best thing that happened to my life- a gift from whatever supreme being there is that exist. He's a good man, artistic, and kind. I found myself when I met him. He knows nothing about these thoughts but one thing I reflected on his personality is to be myself and love whatever it is who I am. Be responsible too. He's a great guy and I wake up thinking how lucky girl I am to meet such great guy like him. And my motto "never take someone for granted." Only now I get even use that motto when I met him. I'm not obsessed with him but I'm deeply blessed for meeting him my life. And tbh, there's more to know about him and him to know about me. And when we are together for long, whatever happens from there. Either he's my forever or he's not, I will still always remember that he's one of the best things that happened to my life. I had a boyfriend once before my bf now, and I learned sex and love with him. But my current bf, I learned life. Just honestly how he talks. And tbh, I was never alone nor friendless nor should be even feel jealous about his lifestyle whatever, I just need to actually stop isolating myself from people. I kinda need to stop hanging out with negativity and depression and anxiety. I need to set them out of their cage and let it fly. Let them fly and transfer to something else. Depression and anxiety is a part of me and they do come back but tbh, I just kinda slowly understood how to deal with them from time to time. The older I get, the more people I met whatever. But now I just know who I am.