For as long as I can remember, I have always had a toxic relationship with my mother, even as a little kid. For these past few years, it got to the point where she was making me feel suicidal sometimes. I wish I could cut her lose. I wish I could let her go. I wish I could move on with my life without her in it....but she is still my mother.....and that is what is keeping me tied to her while I slowly suffocate from it until it pushes me to edge again.