I'm a cinematographer with the most perfect job imaginable. Straight out of college I got hired to be a creative director for a small studio, just based on a friends' recommendation. I know practically any other person would kill for such a job and opportunity but I've been depressed for a year because we only make documentaries. As much as I love watching them, I hate making them. I want to make psychological melodramas like The Machinist or A Guide To Recognizing Your Saints. The studio is not interested in this though, and every new project is starting to kill me inside because I know this isn't my genre, but I never have the time or energy to actually write what I want because my work takes up all my mental and physical strength. But I'm too scared to quit or change because I don't know if I'll ever hold the same position anywhere else. Its been 4 years and I feel a hollow shell of my former creative self. The documentaries we make aren't even that hard hitting... just standard mainstream crap. The moneys not amazing either but again is my only source of income.