I TOLD HIM! AND THANK GOD I DID! I feel so free now that I don't feel like I'm hiding my feelings of discomfort. I told him it wasn't going to happen now or anytime in the foreseeable future but that even tho I can't be what he needs he still deserves someone who can be that as well as not to hold out for me. I feel so much peace. My anxiety is halfed and now all I feel is mild guilt but overall I'm happy and I know I'll be happier not having to worry about giving the wrong signals or about what I do affecting him! No more emotional pressure. I'm sad to have had to to this to him but for far to long I've prioritized other feelings over my comfort and Frick that. I deserve happiness and comfort! My feelings are just as valid and I don't have to suffer needlessly!