A few years ago I fell in love with a guy I met on the Internet. He lives 2 states away and I've always wanted to save up money to see him but, I've had numerous relationships and messed with his emotions. The past few years haven't been the same because we quit talking as much. I still love him and I still want to meet him. The problem is I'm 5 months pregnant and I love the man who got me pregnant and I'm with him. He has never known of my secret love for this guy 2 states away whom I've never met. I can't help to feel guilty but I don't want to ruin the relationship with my boyfriend.