I spend every waking moment wanting to peel my own skin off. I beat myself in the head constantly every time I feel like I need to be punished. At any given moment I feel on the brink of breaking down into a violent, self-harmful crying fit. My family doesn't and will never fully understand, and it makes me feel even worse. I'm too poor to seek help, and I'm losing the few friends I did have because they can't handle being around me. I've been genuinely considering suicide and I'm so desperate that I've actually come here to get all this out, because I can't tell anyone else without feeling guilty for putting my problems on them.