I have an amazing fiancé, I work with my best friend, my family life is going well...but I'm not happy and I have no clue why. I should be, I really really have no reason not to be.. But I'm not. My fiancé is going out of town for work and I'm contemplating on asking him to take his gun, because I don't trust myself enough not to use it to end things. I just want to be able to feel happiness again.