My ultimate goal is to raise my family the best way I can. Lately I feel like the biggest loser ever, I work $8 an hour 50 hours a week. We have a solid plan, but i just don't feel like I'm accomplishing much at all. Once she finishes school i'll be the worthless father she wont need anymore. I've gained 40 pounds because of my anxiety and I no longer feel that I will succeed. I feel my health declining and feel like I wont last much longer..