My best guy friend and I came to the decision that we would remain friends and not date, despite feeling mutual attraction for some time before that. It just wasn't the right time for him. I wanted to keep him in my life, so I agreed. But I can't help myself; I don't like it when he hangs out with other girls. It hurts me, even though it shouldn't. I have not and will not tell him, though. I still care for him, even though he doesn't want me. I don't like feeling like this, and I feel like a bad person and friend. Maybe I am...buy shutting off my feelings is something I've never been able to do.