My brother sexually abused me for years growing up. I let him out of fear that he would hate me. Finally a few years ago I built up the courage to say no. To this day he watches me getting dressed without me noticing and has tried to convince me to let him do things to me. He just celebrated his one year anniversary with his girlfriend, whom he has sex with. I fear that this has ruined my life and has given me emotional problems. I don't know how to explain why I hate my brother to my boyfriend. I can't tell him out of fear that it will change our relationship or what he would do to him. Without a time machine, I don't know how to undo the damage my brother has done to me.