I'm in love with the most amazing woman. I want to marry her so bad. But I've lost all trust that I've had with her because she gave a guy a blowjob last year. I NEED an outward sign of commitment, this summer when I go to visit her in France. I'm going to give her an ultimatum because I refuse to be a doormat. I'm so scared she's going to tell me to fuck off. I'm dying inside, and can't tell her on Skype it's too impersonal.