I've been in love with my crush for a long time and nobody knows it. We're very good friends, but I'm not even her best friend, I know some guys who are before me on her "friends list". The more painful thing is that I just can't bear not talking to her one day and I'm angry as hell when she starts to do things like ignoring me, eating with somebody else or talking with new guys but I have to keep it for myself. Even more painful : she's not the kind of girl who texts first, and if I'm not always looking for her we can spend months without talking. I feel so bad everytime we've been arguing, and we argues a lot. Damn.