I try to be independent. just try to. im scare to be alone. but i have no one so i try to be everywhere alone. try to do anything alone. i have so many responsibilities especially to my family. got a boyfriend but he just so selfish and never be with me when i need him. i become someone different. i dont want people to know my problems. i love now to be alone even actually sometimes not. i always thinking about suicide. so many things and now, i dont know.