I'm sick and never feel like I'm going to get better. It's a lingering pain that holds me back but just enough that I can still get by when I have to. I feel like I'm too old and it's too late and dot know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I'm only "pretty" with make up on. I wonder if I'll ever find aam that I won't get sick of ad sick of "sleeping" with. I get bored easily in general. I do t like people but need some kind of connection with someONE I'd fine.