I am in a violent abusive relationship. I have been isolated from my friends and family. Id run away but my mind is so damaged i feel so comfortable now in the abuse. I am afraid that if i did get away he would find me and hurt me or my loved ones to get back at me. I feel like a prisoner. any time i speak up he says im talking bull and smacks me in the mouth if i express my feeling about general every day topics and cop a smack how am i supposed to stand up enough to ever run away?