They say that in order to truly feel happiness, one must go through many hard and painful periods. I don't know how much more i can take. I don't know how many more disappointments my heart can bear. And just when i think i'll become more 'bulletproof' to the pain, it just gets worse everytime. She was one of my closest friends, and i honestly never, never, thought she'd hurt me so much. I just want to leave everything, ditch my graduation, my prom, everything, and just leave. i can't deal with this pain again.