I asked the guy I have a huge crush one to go out. He told me he couldn't right now, because he had made plans with his friends and girlfriend. He has understood about my feelings. Fuck. I made an ass of my self. But now I feel nothing. I mean, like completely nothing. I had a lesson with his father (he's my teacher) and I didn't feel awkward like all the other times or sad or ashamed or anything. I don't feel a thing for anyone and anything. I met with a friend of mine I really like and I didn't feel joy or sth like this. I'm kinda fu*ked up, aren't I?